Diane

I fought saying good-bye with every fibre of my being even though I knew chocolate wasn’t doing me any good.  I knew it didn’t trigger my migraines, but I also knew that it made my medications much less effective.  So, for two or three weeks after my neurologist told me to stop eating ALL chocolate I made token effort after another, said that since it didn’t actually cause migraines, I wouldn’t eat it certain times of month, then finally stopped eating it like I was supposed to.

It has been two weeks since I stopped eating chocolate and a funny thing has happened.  I didn’t realize how much of my sweet tooth revolved around chocolate.  Seems that my opinion is “If it’s not chocolate, what’s the point.”  I’ve had a few home made cookies and a couple pieces of fudge - in two weeks.  No binging, no eating everything in sight.  Had a couple of migraines, but haven’t thrown in the towel and eaten all the chocolate in the house.  Yes, there is a lot - I make a lot of cookies and candy this time of year.

The best side effect is the scale - I have lost several pounds without even trying.  I think I will make my goal of being below 240 before 2009.  I only have a half pound to go.

Happy New Year!

50 pounds in 13 weeks.  I have my next endocrinologist appointment then.  My blood work was better today, good even, but not great.  My doctor said that it probably wasn’t going to get much better because of my weight.

When she started to talk about Xenical as a possible alternative she made it clear that she wasn’t a fan as she was also naming off all the side effects.  So I said, “Or perhaps getting off my butt and exercising for 30-60 minutes a day?”  She just smiled and said, “That would work, too.”

So, in keeping with my birthday present to myself, I am hoping that I will be able to reach my goal of 50 pounds lost by March 17th.  And not in keeping with that goal, I have really got to finish making the Christmas goodies to mail out!

365 hours.  That is what I am giving myself.  365 hours of guilt free hours for health for the next year.  45 minutes a day for exercise and nearly 2 hours a week for healthy meal planning.

I have seen 30, 35, 36 and now 37 pass without any significant change in health.  38 will not be the same.  When Dec. 11 comes in 2009, I will no longer be needing to lose 100 plus pounds.  I will probably have some left to lose, but no where close to 100 pounds.  I will be closer to being on the outside who I am on the inside.

And I will be going to LL Bean when I go to Maine in 2010 to get but what ever I want.  Well, one complete outfit.  I grew up in Maine, visit there every chance I get and have never been able to wear anything besides boots and gloves.  That will be fun.

And now I must go feed my little ones breakfast.  I hope everyone has a great day.

I stepped on the scales this morning and saw a number I haven’t seen in nearly 5 years.  Just had to share.  Hope everyone has a good day.