Diane

It’s funny how life works sometimes.  Almost 19 years ago I graduated from high school and vowed never to return to that facility.  A few years ago I did go back, but only to the bookstore that had been added next to the school.  The two years I spent there were made of memories I’d truly rather forget.  I have been pretty successful at doing that, but I have never forgotten the names of everyone.  No, I did not endure torment at the hands of my classmates, I was just the outsider and it was high school.

Over the past couple of months I’ve signed up for a facebook account.  I have found some old childhood friends that it has been wonderful reconnecting with.  What has surprised me is the number of my high school classmates who have contacted me - people that barely realized that I was in the same school that they were.  Some of these people who seemed to have their lives handed to them on a silver platter - it hasn’t taken me long to realize that we have all grown up.  And it has been really nice getting re-acquainted with, and in some cases, getting to know for the first time.

And how does all of this relate to weight loss?  Since I have been in touch with my past, and to an extent, made peace with it, I have begun losing weight again.  It’s not rapid, but it is steady.  I have lost the urge to over eat.  My desire for chocolate, and sugar in general, has diminished to almost non-existent.  I am more peaceful and it is translating into my physical appearance.   So, when I gave up searching for WHY I was over weight, I found the answer.   I needed to get beyond the perceived hurts of the past regarding weight.  I needed to realize that because it may have been an issue 20 years ago, 15 years ago, it no longer is, not to the people who are important to me and not to many of the people who it may have once been an issue with.

I am ready to be the person on the outside that is on the inside.  And now, I realize that I don’t want to be that 18 year-old, that 21 year-old, whoever I was back when.  I want to be me, who I am now: wife, Mom, daughter, friend - DIANE!