What’s been going on
I have not been myself for several weeks now. I’ve had a headache and/or migraine for the better part of 6 weeks and it’s really gotten me down. Nothing is helping and, of course, it’s all in my head. Well, no, it’s not. Every muscle in my body aches. I really didn’t expect to feel like this for at least a half century! I’m not supposed to wake up every morning feeling worse than after going through nearly 23 hours of labor! I have managed to stay below the 250 mark, but not by much. I don’t know if it’s the heat or what, but it’s frustrating.
Funny thing is, I’m not depressed. Tired, sore, in pain, frustrated, yes, but not depressed. Even the dogs, kids and husband aren’t getting on my last nerve except at certain times of month. Today I had to laugh. I had a 50% off coupon for a craft store (my favorite place to shop) and couldn’t find anything I wanted to spend money on. What made me laugh was this question - Am I more depressed than I realized and have no interest in things or am I not nearly as depressed as I have been in the past few years and therefore felt no need to spend the money to feel better? Hmmm. Maybe it just comes down to not wanting to waste money.
Right now my stress level is very high. I have to decide what to do with my puppy. Do I spend a lot of money on training, not knowing if it will work for sure or do I give away the puppy and break my daughter’s heart? Husband does not like the dog. I know she’s trainable, but is she worth it? I just want to throw in the towel on this one, but I took her as a puppy and I’m responsible for her. It’s not her fault she’s a pain in the butt - it’s mine. Also, the dentist took one look at my daughter’s upper lip today and said she’d never seen anything like it and referred us to an oral surgeon. It’s nothing serious physically, but will be emotionally if it’s not taken care of. I know, I had the surgery when I was 14 because I wouldn’t smile. My daughter’s top lip is attached to the gum in the center so it can’t move normally. My son is the same way. I don’t want my kids going through surgery at a young age, well my son already has for another reason, but I don’t want their self esteem to be damaged if they don’t.
If I could wish myself anything selfish at the moment, it would be a month at a spa. Relax, meditate, exercise, have someone else prepare meals. Guess I’ll settle for a good night’s sleep.
Sorry you are not feeling well thses days. I hope you feel better soon. Good luck with the puppy situation. I hope you can figure something out with that. Hang in there Diane.
I really hope things get better for you real soon. Just do the best you can.
Depression often goes undiagnoised, because it comes is so many different forms. People often have the misconception that you are only suffering depression when you are weeping and suicidal. WRONG! Loss of interest in things that once thrilled you is a definate sign of depression. Talk to you doctor.